Have fun storming the castle!

I simply cannot believe all the pain and heartache I’ve had… just since I wrote about blogging while in the process of a divorce.  Our divorce has not even been officially filed.  Some may say, “What are you waiting on?”  Well… that’s a good question.  I truly believe beyond a shadow of ANY doubt that God could heal our marriage.  To quote one of my favorite lines from The Princess Bride,  “It would take a miracle!” copyright MGM, 1987 But, I know that He could.  I’ve told the man I’m still legally married to (a.k.a. my husband) that I know it would most likely be putting ourselves through even more “Hell” than we’ve already had… to try and salvage our marriage.  But as I told him, I am willing to do whatever it would take.  The reason I am willing?  God has given me faith in Him beyond what I can comprehend or explain.  In some ways, I see it (my faith in Him) as fairly simple.  Even if you don’t believe that God created the universe, I’m pretty sure it’s been scientifically proven that there once was a flood of the whole world.  And, a God that can do that… can heal my marriage.  (Not to mention the parting of the Red Sea and other miracles that God has done.)

Okay, I didn’t start out this post with the intention of “preaching.”  So, what’s the point of this post?  I honestly don’t know.  I am grateful to Jennifer (from The Lemonade Connection) for her comment on that post from January of 2011.  Even though my divorce technically hasn’t even started, I appreciate that she’d be willing to talk to me.  And, I’m grateful to Dana (from Roscommon Acres) for her comment on that post.  She said she’d take me as I am.  To have a sister-in-Christ being willing to be non-judgmental of me means more than I can say.

Are there things that I wish I could change?  Hardly a moment passes, that I don’t wish I could change something… even about that moment.  🙂  Maybe it’s my self-diagnosed OCD and/or perfectionistic tendencies that cause me to put that kind of pressure on myself.  I wish I knew.  If I did know, how would it make things better?

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